What shape does your thought process have? I propose there to be at least two diverging modes:
The bouncer is quick, as a ball it springs outward and when hitting something else it bounces back. Its preferred movement is variation. The bouncer loathes going deeper. The bouncer disrespects boundaries, both disciplinary and between different beings, asking others
what they know – even if that other is so radically different to answer in ways
beyond words, such as a playing dog or a flowering plant. If it does not get feedback it quickly empties itself out. The easiest way to calm the process of a bouncer is to offer them nothing in return.
The spiraller is slow, an inward withdrawal which feeds upon itself. Its preferred movement is deepening. The spiraller loathes variation. The spiraller seeks to understand and stay within its own limits,
exploring what it knows, what it can know, and indeed what could possibly be
known, even when such insight may slow the thought process down to make any
movement impossible. If it does not get feedback it can keep spiralling. The easiest way to calm a spiraller is to offer them something in return.
For
spirallers the bouncer can seem superficial, too quick
to incorporate responses and move on. For bouncers the spiraller can seem too slow and hostile against incorporating empirical
material. The spiraller seems like a bore, while the bouncer seems sloppy.
This distinction can be fruitful for understanding one of the major divides in contemporary philosophy, that of object-orientation versus new materialism. Both fields regularly claim philosophical commitment to reality, to inquiry into non-anthropocentric reality. The major divide between these philosophical trajectories can be summarized as the question of whether reality is fundamentally interconnected matter (new materialism) or discrete objects (object-oriented). Object-orientation
holds reality to be made up of essences which always escape us. New
materialism, on the other hand, renders reality as constantly changing
and evolving. While this is an ontological question, it might not be as fundamental as either of these schools hold them to be, as the withdrawn and evolving nature of reality does not necessarily oppose each other. The division can perhaps be approached as techniques for aligning reality with modes of thought : the object-oriented can insist on their spiral feeling of reality withdrawing, while new materialists can keep their bouncy feeling of reality as variation.